Is everyone happy in this world? Is everyone satisfied with who they really are or they are still trying to become someone they never would or never really can. What makes me sad is the way I’ve seen things. The way I felt them with every possible minute detail. Can anyone ever feel the same about me? Can anyone ever believe that I’m the best for them and they love me for who I’m?
I’ve met people maybe thousands of them but no one stayed. No one really praised me and guided me through my difficulties. Instead of saying “hey look up I’m here” they left me saying “you can’t do it”. Was it all I asked from you? Even with all tears and feelings I had for you,you just turned your back when you said you will always be here and face the world with me. Am I so difficult to understand? Did I become to dependent on you? Maybe your silence was decieving and I thought you would take a step back just to help me out. I’m sorry that I even expected that from someone like you. Someone who can’t even handle their problems. I always tried to be there for you. I always wanted to be your protector. Was I wrong in being vigilant towards you? Was I soo wrong in caring for you?
I gave up my sleep and all my comforts for you. I woke up late nights so that you don’t have a single freckle of tears on your cheek. Those eyes deep black and full of unknown secrets made me think you cared. But instead of being their you walked away. So far away that I can’t even see you from these desperate and needy eyes. But I still hope that someday you come running to me saying ” hey it took me long, long enough to realise your are soo important to me.”
You left me alone. You left me all alone in the middle of the night, in the gloomy dark sight.