Trivial love. 

I can feel a distance of thousand suns,

Like this race has just begun,

I can feel my hands shivering in fears,

Like it’s all coming back from past years,

I glance at you in a hope of revival,

Yet I just think of a mere survival,

Like the moon will lose it’s shine one day,

Like the world won’t make it past its dooms day,

Can you tell me how long I have to wait,

Because this love makes me lose my faith.
“Should I text her?”I ask myself.

“Like you have listened to what I say to you right?” A voice came banging from inside.

“But I can make it alright” I said in a sad tone.

“Like you always made it alright? For God sake don’t text her long messages. It hurts inside when you text her everything and all you get is a “last seen at “. Why so stubborn?” Voice replied.

“Why so stubborn? Because I’ve heard it so many times that the things that are meant to be with you will always be there with you. And I can’t bear this distance between us. I feel like miles and miles of dessert still I make a move to get something out of it. Because I can’t let her go away without trying everything I have.” I said

“You have anything? Like love left ? Why you name it love? Is love so easily lost and so hard to find? I mean look at you and look at her. Love separates people to an extent they don’t even recognise each other or pretend that they are perfect strangers with their shared packets of forevers and endless promises which they have made . How can love demand nothing yet takes away everything from you?” Voice with utmost rage.

“Have you ever seen her smile?”I said 

No reply.

“Have you ever tried to touch her hands as she gets closer to you? Have you ever felt so lost in her deep black eyes that almost drown in them. Her scent so fresh like winds that pass through a garden of roses. Have you ever been this fallen in love that minutes of being with her feels like millenniums of infinities. Have you ever held her in your arms and felt like the entire universe in your arms. I close my eyes and I see her beside me. I don’t see her when I open my eyes. How tragic it is that I’ve spent my entire lifetime with someone I longer get to see or get to touch or get to feel. All I do is replay the voice memos she sent me on my birthday or the picture collage she sent me. I’ve been looking at them for days, weeks, months and even years. It has all passed by now and I have heard those memos soo many times I know what will come next. Still I wait eagerly for her to say those things and smile like an idiot. I sense you are right but I sense you are totally wrong as well. I know I’m not the one but I know I won’t give up on the fact of being the last one. 

I’ve read this quote in a movie. 

How can one step away from you be the step in the wrong direction.

I’ve missed her. Don’t you see that? ” I said crying to myself.

“But.” A voice came from inside.

“What but?” I uttered 

” Love is something that I won’t ever understand” voice said. 

“Why are you crying again?” Mom shouted.

“Well she knows what love is.” I said whispering.

“Wait I’ll tell you more about love.” Mom said slapping on my head.

“No way she heard that. Damn mom. ” I said smiling.

” You never loved me she said,

I always loved you he shouted,

Then why you left me she asked,

Because it was meant to be he remarked,

Is this what love means now I ask,

How trivial this love and it’s so dark,

But the god came down to me,

And held me to let me see,

How love means trying you heart out,

And forgetting about this chaos and drought,

Because love means trying,

And love is also a little bit of dying.

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28 Comments Add yours

  1. Khushi says:

    Amazingly written! Beautiful👍

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    1. Thank you miss 😆🙈

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      1. Khushi says:

        You’re welcome.😊

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  2. Khushi says:

    Yeah. I sorta read “should I text her” and thought that you’re a boy. But despite being a girl,I sometimes write with the POV of a boy so I thought of asking you! Ps why tragically tho? Haha

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    1. Tragic because we’ll I don’t know TBH. Maybe because you thought I was a girl at first 🙊

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      1. Khushi says:

        Haha. I never thought you were a girl. Its just that I didn’t know you could be a boy either. Well that doesn’t make any sense I know. Its just that I felt like I haven’t yet come across a blog that had posts like yours that have been written by a boy. I have usually just seen them reviewing other stuffs or writing some different content. Idk how to explain really but that’s sort of a compliment!

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      2. OMG that’s the best thing I’ve heard in recent times. “Never thought you were a girl. And didn’t know about me being a boy either. Neutral gender 😂😂😂😂 well nvm. You made my day miss. You aren’t getting away from me irritating you any sooner 🙈😂

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      3. Khushi says:

        Haha😁 C’mon. I didn’t mean “neutral”. And yes, you’re welcome! “You made my day Miss” this makes me sound like a 20-year-old-something…like being called like “miss” haha. My name’s there btw ,you can use that lol. It should be me calling you “dude/mr,etc lol. And btw u aren’t annoying tbh! I get so Hype when I talk to people who write similar stuffs so I like having convos.

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      4. Well we should talk on any other platform rather than talking in comments I guess? 🙊

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      5. Khushi says:

        Um okay? Ig? But I guess u gotta delete these comments later on!

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      6. Naah let it be. Hangouts 😆😂

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      7. Khushi says:

        Ugh what? I don’t use that sorry

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      8. Well I don’t use ig 😶 fb?

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      9. Khushi says:

        I don’t fb haha. I like ig. don’t wanna sound like a wierdo but I dont even know how to socialize on fb properly lol. other suggestions?

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      10. Ahh well gmail? 😂

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      11. Khushi says:

        I wont be safe leaking info here haha.

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      12. Khushi says:

        😁😁😁😁 I aren’t a pro t handling gmails. Well, we can chat on ig and u may like not use it still for like posting purposes but for like casual talks cmon

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      13. I don’t have a personal phone to install ig🙊 I still use my mom’s cell gmail can me the best palez🐀

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      14. Khushi says:

        can’t GMail like that . My phone’s having probs with gmail stuff😐

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      15. Hu hu hu hu😭 text messages? 🤔😂

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      16. Khushi says:

        Cmon. Ig is saver than fb cmon. 😁😁 My suggestion is for ig!! Go for it. Atleast u have it already! Post mat karna na sirf dms etc ke liye use karlena. And if u feel like the notifications etc will trouble your mom go about logging out and in time and again. That way it wouldn’t even trouble you!

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      17. Khushi says:

        U don’t have one or u don’t use it? Its like basic and easy fir socializing tbh just sayinh

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      18. I don’t use it I have one TBH🐷

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  3. Khushi says:

    Btw are you a guy or a girl? (U may delete this comment later on if you feel so lol 😀)

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    1. No I won’t delete that though. What you thought at first is the thing I’m curious to know tbh. I’m a boy Tragically 😂

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  4. And as always I’ve fallen for your post. :”).

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