Does this heart keeps on breaking?
Because my love is still in the making.
This fear of being honest,
This fear of not being the best.
How can we ever look at each other,
When we are lost in our own forever.
I’m never going to this place,
I’m leaving away no trace.
The nights are too Long, I’m honest,
I’m putting my love to a test.
Today I’m feeling emoirous,
I’m feeling emoirous. ”
“Hello?” he said.
“Hey! Guess who. ” she said in a happy voice.
“I’m too weak in this guessing game, speak up.” he said in a cranky voice.
“Idiot it’s me. How long you take to pick up the call. Never mind I have a big surprise for you. I’m in a relationship.” she said.
“Rela.. What?! I’m so happy for you. So when you both are meeting?” he said while trying to hide his emotions.
“I’ll tell you everything. Let’s meet today at the park. I have a lot to tell you.” she said happily.
“Sure I’ll catch up.”he said.
*phone hung up*
” Wow. And I was planing to tell her I started feeling something about her. Well I guess it’s not meant to be maybe. What can I do for her. Well… I’ll write her a letter. That will do.” he said to himself.
Hey it’s me. Remember we both always ended up fighting because I kept on talking about girls. You always knew me better than anyone else. And I always told you to wait for the right time. Maybe it has arrived for you. When you finally feel your first time. When you do get to know something called weird feeling. When you do everything yet it feels like you did nothing at all. All I wanted to say is I hope your first time feels like there’s nothing like losing someone. I hope your first time gives you a feeling of a lifetime where you can cherish every sense of emotion. I wish your first time gives you a whole amusement park not just a roller coaster. I hope when you hold hands you feel like he is the one. I hope when you both kiss you feel every emotion running through your mouth. I hope when you laugh you laugh like you laugh when you are with me. I hope you share everything to him like you do with me. I hope you dance your way through the trees holding hands. I hope you jump in the rain and you fight with each other like kids do. I hope your first time feels like nothing but love. When you hold on to everything when nothing falls into piece. When you fall asleep in his arms and he looks at you like I did with a smile on my face. I recall once you said we can end up together. But I was always afraid of losing you. I still I’m. I can’t let you go because you became a whole journey in my life. I’ve never been such high with my emotions, but I do feel that when I talk to you. I can’t lose you because I’m vulnerable. I can’t let go when I love and I don’t want you to go. That’s why I didn’t fall in love with you. I can’t let your first relationship be with someone who is too afraid to lose you. Who isn’t even sure how to love. I can’t afford to make you cry because of me. I can make your dreams come true but I can’t ruin your dreams with a truth. I can hold your hand the entire night but I can’t let go of it for a single second. I can fall for you but I won’t let you fall for someone like me. I can be your Armour but I cant let you lose because of me. I can be your shadow but I won’t let you notice me. You should fall for someone who doesn’t fall for you because only then you’ll realize how worth your first time is. I hope you can cross oceans without me. In case you don’t I’ll be you sail and help you out till the end. I don’t know what the future holds. Maybe we get along laying beside each other. But right now I’m running and I can’t make you run with me. I want you to have someone stable with whom you can call yourself to be home. Someone who can make you feel weird and beautiful. And someone with whom you can die in peace with.
Your other half. ”
“Hey did we make it the other way?
Or we just kept our sails a stay.
Hey did we fall in love?
Or we just flew away like a dove.
This life is always too long without you.
The days so dark and the nights all blue.
Tell me your stories I’m waiting,
Tell me how to love, I can’t keep dreaming.